The Big C

so last night i started watching the show on showtime '' the big c'' it kinda made me sad because in the show the lead (laura linney) is diagnosed with skin cancer and instead of telling everyone they all start to think she is crazy for wanting to live her life to the fullest but really she just doesnt want people to pitty her or try to talk her into getting treatment that will make her sick that she doesnt want. she goes through the show trying to reconnect with her teenage son, fix her marriage, and to begin doing things she has always wanted to.
it made me sad but i then thought how nice someone is reaching out to help other people, exploring new ideas, and experiencing new things.
i wish that i was able to just start living things that way just literally drop everything and make a change and stick to it so well i wish that i had that kind of determination and strength. it would be scary to find out i had cancer but to not tell anyone and just try to live my life and fix my family im not sure that i could find it in me but apparently the character in the show has figured it out and now it has me intrigued so here is yet another show im addicted to and will be watching dont worry i'll keep you posted.

& we begin again

i think im gonna give this one more good old fashion ''college try.'' i used to love writing and i kinda lost touch but blogging is basically getting me back into it without having to store all the materials myself. its an outlet among others to help me vent,question,stress,dream,request,and believe in the better. Believe in the future and what it has in store for me. i might not always post an entry of writing but maybe sometimes just an entry of something that changed my day or maybe a little of both either way this is apart of me. i have a crazy life these days very stressful and there is always something new and sometimes thats not a good thing. you may notice that i wait a few days or that i dont use proper writing styles but thats me. proper in someways and all creative in others. i come from a big family my best friends in the world are my sisters.

my four nieces and two nephews might as well be my kids because i spend as much time with them as i can i love them unconditionally. i have an amazing boyfriend, wonderful parents, two brother in laws,a outgoing older brother, and a great job. among those i also have a car that will probably break done soon the pipe dream of a career i seriously can profit from as well as make my life better, get my own place and be as successful as some other people i know.

life is crazy and now that im an adult im trying to make the changing process slow down as much as possible. i never knew how much was in store for me i wish i would have prepared better but... what can you do right... just take things a day at a time. this is my blog. i hope you enjoy feel free to comment and to ask questions because you will see that i have lots of questions my self... until next time ........... same bat time same bat channel

SAMI