Last night was one of my favorite nights of the year. To the average person that may sound weird but last night was the academy awards!! i have seen 17  academy awards in my life time. i have gawked over the beautiful gowns, the handsome men in tuxedos, watched the weird photos being taken, the comments being said , the sparkle of the sequins, the bright flash of camera bulbs. it never stops entertaining me. i try every year and watch all the movies that are nominated for the awards just so i can have a good perspective on the ceremony the whole three hours. i think they should have a category for musicals / comedies but for some reason alot of comedic actors dont really get their credit for being so amazing. this year was the first year since the 1930's that a silent film has been made and adored as much. i would like to know why musicals arent recognized as such roses either ... the last musical that i can think of that actually did well and was nominated for an academy award was the musical chicago. i dont know but if you ask me they need to start working on the dance numbers and the scores.
im about to spend the day catching up on my movie watching now. the films i wasnt able to watch before the big show. first on the list extremely loud and incredibly close. a review will be sure to follow

disgruntled human

ok so i honestly am not good at this and for some reason i dont know why but even though i like to blog and i actually find it very helpful i can never freaking remember to do it. urgh commitment what are you gonna do. life has been hard lately im noticing that more and more its becoming difficult. juggling and managing. organizing and stressing. loving and fighting. its so freaking much that sometimes you just wanna be able to take a day off of your life. how do we do that. they make it look so easy in other peoples lives or in the movies its so difficult. i didnt have anything handed to me ya i just lost my job ya i have a crap car no i dont have a degree what else do you want me to say. ive worked for what i have which isnt much but its mine. for how long i dont know not much longer if i dont find a job. things are always on the way up some say but i feel like im always been kicked down the stairs. its ridiculous. i worry all the time i feel like thats the only thing i am able to do and im good at it it is what it is its whats needed and im the one who can deliver. i know im not making sense to those people who read this and have a pretty easy going life style but to those who dont i would like to think you understand and please excuse all the writing errors man if my highschool english teachers could see me now they would freak out . i miss the days of simplicity and i knew what i was gonna do and what i wanted. it seemed possible and i hoped that i was further than i am now but apparently that wasnt in the cards im wondering what is in the cards because i'd like a new hand please maybe a redeal just for god sake no more hits i cant take it. im being rescued from my pitty party soon so hopefully like it did yesterday it will make me feel a little better but who knows maybe it will maybe it wont

new things are happening

ok so now that i have an amazing computer my wonderful boyfriend helped me purchase i will try my best to write more often. i am not really sure who keeps up with this or who even reads this but i really like venting on here it makes my daily troubles seem easier to deal with and easier to solve. so i guess i will just start with i moved into a new apartment an even bigger apartment. i love it my best friend stacia moved in with me and its nice to have a friend around at all times to lean on for some understanding. i switched jobs i now work at macy's department store its cool i work in the kids department so i barely take home a pay check with all the adorable kids clothing and such that i pick up for my sister's children. my relationship with my parents has gotten even better. i love them i really dont know what id do with out them. i mean as a child of someone we always think urgh my parents but i am very lucky to have them. we just passed up halloween which was soooo much fun the kids all dressed up in their costumes is my favorite part they are growing up so fast its unreal they always have such a great time. i remember the days of dressing up and having a great time trick or treating with my brother. i was very happy jeremy was able to celebrate with me. he actually surprised me because his new job takes him out of town quite a bit i thought it would put a strain on our relationship but honestly i love him and im happy we are catching up on our bills and such but i think its bringing us closer i mean its not fun being without him but it makes us even more grateful for the time we have together and it gets hard not being able to talk whenever we want to or just go somewhere and hang out but we work it out we are both very independent people anyway so it kinda gives us a little bit of freedom to do more of what we havent been able to by ourselves or with our friends. he is home for the rest of the weekend and i am really happy about it. i convinced him to get an upgrade to an iphone today he's having fun figuring it all out its funny. things are going well i suppose im happy things are slowly getting better sometimes i still really feel like screaming but it happens to us all i suppose. well i guess until next time......
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a fork in the road

So I said I was going to be better at this ,but I have failed. I don't really know why I can't remember to write on a regular basis. I suppose it may be because not much happens right now.. I mean sure if I don't write for months there is a thing or two but you know what I mean. For instance we finally got Osama Bin Laden... I took a much needed trip to San Antonio but non the less it was a blast. My car has been an adventure as always. My job still is crazy to say the very least (and yet nothing at all to ensure that no one I work with or for will understand the hatred I have with that place ... oops) still waiting for some cosmic answer... or something to just make sense and give me answers.... that has not happened yet obviously. Although I must say my days are happier with the best little people in the world in my life. I mean I don't know I have always loved children but the kids in my family ( maybe its me being bias and that's ok) but they are just the freaking best ever!!!! I really think that God was like I am going to put some extremely AmAzInG kids on earth congrats they are in your family. So they definitely make life interesting and fill it with love. Which I guess is a little greedy to ask for more seeing as I have them but hey a girl can dream... isn't that why we have stars?

Until next time Same Bat Time Same Bat Channel

unsure

I'm waiting for a change. Waiting for something new to happen or maybe just something to fall back into place what that might be I'm not too sure. I wish things would just stay steady and easy going for a while it's just like things get all messed up when life just seems to start working out. I am getting seriously frustrated. I think I'm also to the point where I am going to have to take my own advice and bite the bullet and make some choices soon that may not make people happy but that are going to make my life easier and hopefully make my days easier and i won't have to wake up and be frustrated. There are so many things that I want to do but as of right now I can't see them happening anytime soon because of the fact that work has never been so stressful and life in general seems to love giving me a hard time I suppose I will just have to take a deep breath and hope things will work out soon.

on my own

since i made my move i have realized that i literally am completely intent. im even more than that im excited, happy, thrilled, and appreciative of what life has given me at this time in my life. my apartment is coming along great i love being on my own. i love being able to invite people to my home and take credit for living in such a nice apartment. it means alot of me to finally be on my own and be independent. my new position with my company, my job, my family, my boyfriend they have all been so supportive, given me so much love and i am blessed to have them. i never knew how much work it would take to have my own place i took living at home for granted until next time...
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such a child

i dont really understand people sometimes. i know people that i have to be around quite often that are the dirtiest people i have ever seen. i know that no matter how much we try to be sanitary about everything sometimes it just doesnt happen that way. im not saying that maybe they left some trash on the floor or forgot to throw a coke can away im talking about a man who doesnt know how to flush a toliet? really.... seriously? seriously? if you are over the age of 5 you should know that when you use the rest room flush the toliet when your done, wash your hands and throw the napkin in the trash can. what is so hard about that? i personally cant understand how people can live with themselves being so dirty and gross its just like come on how do you deal with that how do you just get used to that stuff. its gross no one wants to clean up after you and its discusting. so just stop it grow up and quit being so nasty my best advice would be to take like 5 showers at least and clean up your crap. quit being a child!