on my own

since i made my move i have realized that i literally am completely intent. im even more than that im excited, happy, thrilled, and appreciative of what life has given me at this time in my life. my apartment is coming along great i love being on my own. i love being able to invite people to my home and take credit for living in such a nice apartment. it means alot of me to finally be on my own and be independent. my new position with my company, my job, my family, my boyfriend they have all been so supportive, given me so much love and i am blessed to have them. i never knew how much work it would take to have my own place i took living at home for granted until next time...
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such a child

i dont really understand people sometimes. i know people that i have to be around quite often that are the dirtiest people i have ever seen. i know that no matter how much we try to be sanitary about everything sometimes it just doesnt happen that way. im not saying that maybe they left some trash on the floor or forgot to throw a coke can away im talking about a man who doesnt know how to flush a toliet? really.... seriously? seriously? if you are over the age of 5 you should know that when you use the rest room flush the toliet when your done, wash your hands and throw the napkin in the trash can. what is so hard about that? i personally cant understand how people can live with themselves being so dirty and gross its just like come on how do you deal with that how do you just get used to that stuff. its gross no one wants to clean up after you and its discusting. so just stop it grow up and quit being so nasty my best advice would be to take like 5 showers at least and clean up your crap. quit being a child!

At the Movies

I'm so excited that the show '' At the Movies'' will be returning to tv.
I dont know about anyone else but i love the movies. Movies make me absolutely happy. The cinema has everything i want and need on any day of the week. The snacks are expensive but i dont care i get my drink, go into the theater and pick my seat. I always sit in the middle close to the top as i get settled in and the trailers start i get butterflies in my stomach watching all the action and love stories put together in a timeless way that makes them all perfection. As the lights go down and the opening credits roll across the screen i feel anxious and excited to see what is going to happen, how the story is going to unfold and for two hours with out interruption from the outside world i am able to get lost in the story of a hero, of laughter, or happiness, or of loss. no matter what the out come of what the story is about its very freeing to know that i can get lost any time i would like but i prefer matinee's they are cheaper. the average movie goer says they enjoy the experience of a movie on a date or with their friends. I however find that i dont need either to get away in love story or an action adventure all it takes is some popcorn & dr. pepper . The critics who are able to view movies and watch them for a living literally have the best job in the world tell people and explaining to them that the hundreds of people involved in this piece of history have made someone's live a reality to everyone, have given you are reason to hope or have given you a chance to forgive you never knew you wanted.
cinema may you never change. may you always stay true to your dream making, butterfly installing, adventure seaking, love finding, musically enhanced escape that you have made for me i can never thank you enough for playing such a huge roll in my life. the academy award goes to you.

your not too bad after all

When I was younger there would be times that I remember thinking how mean my parents were and how I couldn't wait to grow up and get out from under their roof. It seems like lately these thoughts are coming back to my attention and i' m realizing how wrong I was for even thinking those thoughts about my parents. I have come to the conclusion that no matter how annoying, frustrating, mean, unfair, or disappointing our parents can seem as you grow up you suddenly see that really the choices they made were to keep you out of trouble, show you that they love you, take care of you, or make sure that you learned your lesson. I have also figured out that it is extremely annoying to find out that your parents were right at one time or another. Frustrating as they can make me my parents are pretty great. They have always told me they love me, they have helped me when I have been in really tight spots, they have supported me, they have laughed with me and they have been there for every holiday, birthday, and special occasion. Really as someone's child and not yet a parent myself I think now looking back at the years that my parents '' didn't understand me'' they understood me more than I understood myself. I wish that everyone had the chance to experience life with a family as amazing as mine. I' m not saying my family is perfect or my parents are better than anyone... but i am saying that I Love them more than anything and I am so blessed and happy.

The Big C

so last night i started watching the show on showtime '' the big c'' it kinda made me sad because in the show the lead (laura linney) is diagnosed with skin cancer and instead of telling everyone they all start to think she is crazy for wanting to live her life to the fullest but really she just doesnt want people to pitty her or try to talk her into getting treatment that will make her sick that she doesnt want. she goes through the show trying to reconnect with her teenage son, fix her marriage, and to begin doing things she has always wanted to.
it made me sad but i then thought how nice someone is reaching out to help other people, exploring new ideas, and experiencing new things.
i wish that i was able to just start living things that way just literally drop everything and make a change and stick to it so well i wish that i had that kind of determination and strength. it would be scary to find out i had cancer but to not tell anyone and just try to live my life and fix my family im not sure that i could find it in me but apparently the character in the show has figured it out and now it has me intrigued so here is yet another show im addicted to and will be watching dont worry i'll keep you posted.

& we begin again

i think im gonna give this one more good old fashion ''college try.'' i used to love writing and i kinda lost touch but blogging is basically getting me back into it without having to store all the materials myself. its an outlet among others to help me vent,question,stress,dream,request,and believe in the better. Believe in the future and what it has in store for me. i might not always post an entry of writing but maybe sometimes just an entry of something that changed my day or maybe a little of both either way this is apart of me. i have a crazy life these days very stressful and there is always something new and sometimes thats not a good thing. you may notice that i wait a few days or that i dont use proper writing styles but thats me. proper in someways and all creative in others. i come from a big family my best friends in the world are my sisters.

my four nieces and two nephews might as well be my kids because i spend as much time with them as i can i love them unconditionally. i have an amazing boyfriend, wonderful parents, two brother in laws,a outgoing older brother, and a great job. among those i also have a car that will probably break done soon the pipe dream of a career i seriously can profit from as well as make my life better, get my own place and be as successful as some other people i know.

life is crazy and now that im an adult im trying to make the changing process slow down as much as possible. i never knew how much was in store for me i wish i would have prepared better but... what can you do right... just take things a day at a time. this is my blog. i hope you enjoy feel free to comment and to ask questions because you will see that i have lots of questions my self... until next time ........... same bat time same bat channel

SAMI